21 Years

Today marks the day that my father passed away. 21 years ago to this day. It is so strange to think that it has been so long. My life has changed so much since I was that small 11 year old girl - I guess that is expected! We all have to grow up sometime!
I find myself reflective today. I ask myself questions. Like - How different would I be had he still been alive? Would he be proud of me now?
I can only hope that he would be so very proud of my life now and the choices I have made. I truly believe that he is watching over me - and I feel his presence almost every day. It is so strange - it is so hard to imagine what life would be like with him in it. I am so used to being without him it is almost surreal to imagine him here. Our family has been the 3 of us for as long as I can remember (well - bigger now of course with Paul and Kaelen and soon to be another little one added). It sometimes make me sad that it is so hard to remember him, but I have to remind myself that I only knew him for 11 years. And those were the best 11 years of my life!!

So on this day - I remember you Dad. Thanks for always being there, for the encouragement, for the fun. Thanks for making me the active person I am today, for being so involved in introducing me to new sports. Thanks for being the "Big Creep" and for letting me be your "Little Creep". Thanks to you, my memories of childhood are so wonderful. I look back at that time not with tears in my eyes because you are gone, but with a smile on my face for what you gave me while you were here.
I love you.